You are peace

As I look back on 2010 all I can think is that it was bittersweet. The bitter: my grandpa passed away two weeks after our wedding. He was 91, but if you asked him he was 92. He is with the love of his life now, who he never forgot or quite moved on from. I guess even in this bitter there is sweet. My dad was diagnosed with cancer. Cancer was just a word until it was someone I loved. I honestly think people only understand it and feel for you if they have been affected by it. At least from my experience, those are the people that ask me how he is, how I am, and remember the important dates and pray. Thank you for that! 
The SWEET: Kyle and I had a beautiful wedding, and the most incredible two week honeymoon. My brother Kurt moved back to the west coast. Kyle got into the engineering program, and his grades are going up drastically. Baby Griff was born healthy and handsome. Steven G and Bridgette FINALLY got engaged, and lastly Kyle and I are slowly figuring out how to be married...which I know is a process that will last years and years. 


As I look forward to 2011 at first all I could think is that it terrifies me. My dad has started treatment and begins double radiation soon. I have no clue what this year holds for Kyle and I. In 2011 I am letting go. There are things that I have tried so hard to fix and understand in the past, and I can't fix them or understand them. I am giving it up to the only one that can. 
"You are peace, You are peace
When my fear is crippling
You are true, You are true
Even in my wandering
You are joy, You are joy
You're the reason that I sing
You are life, You are life,
In You death has lost its sting"
-Hillsong